Ha-ha... what were you hoping to hear tonight? A fully fleshed out confession of my every deed? Every bad turn that's led me to this pathetic moment? Every layer of dirt I've dug for myself deeper into the earth? You'll be here for hours, old chap. The list of my crimes and degeneracy wouldn't fit in my grave. Depraved little bastard, you know? I'm not sure what it is you want me to say. It'd be helpful if you were to spell it out for me.
Hmm... That is pretty rotten. What a world we live in.
[ Even in his worst state, he at best doesn't have a strong opinion on that. Then you know, regular Daan dislikes it pretty strongly so. Can we rework JJK society because this is a really bad standard. ]
A changed world. I'd like to see you try. [ This doesn't sound sarcastic even, it's genuine. ] Always lovely to see people just give it a try. Can't fly out of the nest until you have that push, or something I think Miss Robin would say.
You have my full confidence and support, of course.
Superficially, not. Anyone can be friendly enough, likeable enough, lovable enough. The deeper, grittier parts of another, though. Those are often more contested.
Some people like the lit aspects, all the things that reflect light. The hidden traits, though. Darker desires, wishes, thoughts. Not so much.
There's relationships, and there's relationships. The desire to be known intimately, and accepted for all that you are.
It's a high bar, isn't it. You tell yourself it's easier to be alone, and sometimes it is, but not always. It's just what it is, coming and going just like everything else.
[ Hm... He feels like he understands Daan a bit more from this. ]
Right... Sometimes it isn't enough to be one person, no matter how strong you are. [ For once, he's thinking a bit more on it. ] I learned what loneliness was in that memory you saw and that I might have been born lonely.
In the world I want create, I don't want anyone to feel that, but it should extend to everyone here, too.
...Yes. Some things are just endemic, like a disease you're born with. An inseparable divide is one of them, like an outsider. Observation is your lot.
An awfully lofty dream you've got, Mr. Gojo. But there can be no light without darkness, and vice-versa.
Outsider... yeah. Can't deny the truth. Can't break free of it if you stay true to yourself though, can you? Feeling like one doesn't mean you can't ever mingle with the rest.
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[ I'm still worried about you. ]
No regrets or anything?
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But little to do about them right now. Don't think an apology will do, no.
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I really can't offer you much than an ear.
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I don't really care about your red ledger if that's what you're talking about. It's been weeks and I still think you're a pretty good guy.
[ I wish more adults back at home were like you. ]
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My feelings? There's no greater feeling than someone accepting them, yes. Wholly and inequivocally. But it's a hard ask.
Your world's adults must be absolutely rotten if you want them to be like me.
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[ Satoru has never considered needing that except for one single event. ]
They believe kids can be sacrificed for the greater good... It sounds rotten to me.
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[ Even in his worst state, he at best doesn't have a strong opinion on that. Then you know, regular Daan dislikes it pretty strongly so. Can we rework JJK society because this is a really bad standard. ]
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[ Said with confidence. Maybe it's hubris or ego with how little shame he has. ]
You should cheer me on!
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You have my full confidence and support, of course.
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[ Even though you're not completely yourself. ]
Anyway... Is it really a hard ask? Someone accepting your feelings.
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Some people like the lit aspects, all the things that reflect light. The hidden traits, though. Darker desires, wishes, thoughts. Not so much.
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Sometimes, it's easier to be alone.
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It's a high bar, isn't it. You tell yourself it's easier to be alone, and sometimes it is, but not always. It's just what it is, coming and going just like everything else.
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Right... Sometimes it isn't enough to be one person, no matter how strong you are. [ For once, he's thinking a bit more on it. ] I learned what loneliness was in that memory you saw and that I might have been born lonely.
In the world I want create, I don't want anyone to feel that, but it should extend to everyone here, too.
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An awfully lofty dream you've got, Mr. Gojo. But there can be no light without darkness, and vice-versa.
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[ Anyway... He remembers this word. ]
You still feel like an outsider?
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Outsider... yeah. Can't deny the truth. Can't break free of it if you stay true to yourself though, can you? Feeling like one doesn't mean you can't ever mingle with the rest.