There there. You'll be loved always, even if you don't know how. We're all a bit out of our depths here, aren't we? All these rules and confinements to tip-toe around, where everything is unknown.
You could wallow, of course. Say it's all your fault. Or you could rage against the unfairness of it all, rebel against the darkness trying to drag you back down to the deepest pits.
[you are being a weirdo, daan, and it is slightly concerning especially right after she mentioned strange behavior, but! she glances at him again, expression weary.]
Yeah. [...] I'm tired, not done.
It's going to be a load of broken people who need help. I can do something.
[her instinct is always to reach, to hold onto, but she doesn't. the way he looks makes her heart ache.
there's a little flicker of a memory void, of a campfire. almost interlaced, one over the other, of a wry wizard telling her that he's realizing there are other options, a broken vampire telling her nobody had ever stuck up for him like she had before.
she clears her throat again. bolstered just a little bit by the idea of her friends getting along.]
Told you already that you're up there with them, you know. [she says, firmly.] You all are giving me meaning.
As shit as all of this is, I wouldn't give it up. It's extra time. Me and her agreed on that.
The most frustrating thing of all being that they died right under our noses.
[ Cloud fucking dying in the house. Iwatooshi having curfewed with him! What a mess. Sure, Karlach said don't lose a limb, but what's a limb in comparison to three damn lives.
He's the one that puts a hand on her shoulder. ]
Need to clear my head... organise thoughts for tomorrow.
she agrees, though. and when he rests a hand on her shoulder, her tail actually lifts up out of the dirt where it was laying all limp and sad. i'm sorry that she is very, very warm to the touch. like feverishly so. but she appreciates it - he can probably see her mood lift at least a percent or two.]
Hey, not my fault we go for the spots that are least rubbish to pass out in. [a little grin.] We could make it an on purpose thing. I know it doesn't make a real difference, but it makes me feel a bit less stressed on Thursdays.
And you don't seem to hate Astarion and Gale, so even better.
[ Our CROWDED CABIN and our CROWDED HOUSE and our CROWDED RESIDENCE. ]
Marina tends to come with, so if you don't mind that. I have a general suspicion though that if those journey returns are going to continue, wherever I go is probably going to end up being dictated by whichever cloesst person I can get sitting still.
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[ He sounds so sad. ]
What a time we're in... and still, tomorrow will come.
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... She wouldn't want everybody to be miserable forever. [pull it together, karlach.] None of them would. But especially not her.
We can do right by her. I can. I will.
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Well... she didn't leave alone... but the other poor girl they left behind.
[ Rip, Yuffie. Rip even more, Sipp. Help. ]
She'll understand it. Doubt she'll like it, but better than to leave an afflicted roaming around again.
Three again though...
Let's see if we let one slip our grasp again this time.
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[silence, for a moment, and then:]
I couldn't tell if anybody was acting strange this week. I don't know how to... do this.
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You could wallow, of course. Say it's all your fault. Or you could rage against the unfairness of it all, rebel against the darkness trying to drag you back down to the deepest pits.
Still have it in you to choose?
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Yeah. [...] I'm tired, not done.
It's going to be a load of broken people who need help. I can do something.
[so all of this will go under the rug.]
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That you can. You're our light now, Ms. Karlach. I would be... very sad to see yours go out next, one way or another.
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a beat, and she brings her hand up to wipe her eyes again. the idea that he'd be sad is what is making her try to pull it together.]
... I'll be here as long as I can. [she says, clearing her throat.] Stay with me, though. Okay? It's easier when I've got friends.
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Something Ms. Gainsborough and I talked some amount about.
[ The idea of loneliness. He rubs at his temple tiredly. ]
...As usual, then. At least you still have Gale and Astarion.
[ He finally stopped lastnaming that guy this week. ]
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there's a little flicker of a memory void, of a campfire. almost interlaced, one over the other, of a wry wizard telling her that he's realizing there are other options, a broken vampire telling her nobody had ever stuck up for him like she had before.
she clears her throat again. bolstered just a little bit by the idea of her friends getting along.]
Told you already that you're up there with them, you know. [she says, firmly.] You all are giving me meaning.
As shit as all of this is, I wouldn't give it up. It's extra time. Me and her agreed on that.
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[ He sighs. ]
The most frustrating thing of all being that they died right under our noses.
[ Cloud fucking dying in the house. Iwatooshi having curfewed with him! What a mess. Sure, Karlach said don't lose a limb, but what's a limb in comparison to three damn lives.
He's the one that puts a hand on her shoulder. ]
Need to clear my head... organise thoughts for tomorrow.
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she agrees, though. and when he rests a hand on her shoulder, her tail actually lifts up out of the dirt where it was laying all limp and sad. i'm sorry that she is very, very warm to the touch. like feverishly so. but she appreciates it - he can probably see her mood lift at least a percent or two.]
D'you want me to leave you alone for that?
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Feverish is fine, as long as it doesn't just outright burn him on contact. He pauses a moment when she asks that, hesitating. ]
...Were you busy?
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No.
[she says, tilting her head.]
If you want me to stay, I will.
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[ This isn't said like, super seriously. ]
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Oh, yeah, 'cause we're an absolute joy to be around today. I think it'll be alright for a bit.
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[ Please we have not coordinated this once and yet. ]
...At the same time, it's weirdly nice to see a consistent face.
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Hey, not my fault we go for the spots that are least rubbish to pass out in. [a little grin.] We could make it an on purpose thing. I know it doesn't make a real difference, but it makes me feel a bit less stressed on Thursdays.
And you don't seem to hate Astarion and Gale, so even better.
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[ Our CROWDED CABIN and our CROWDED HOUSE and our CROWDED RESIDENCE. ]
Marina tends to come with, so if you don't mind that. I have a general suspicion though that if those journey returns are going to continue, wherever I go is probably going to end up being dictated by whichever cloesst person I can get sitting still.
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I don't mind. Marina's sweet. [easily enough.] More reason for me to be around, then. Since I've got training, now.
... Good chance one of these times it's going to be me or you that goes, too.
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He grimaces a little bit. ]
Not looking forward to it...
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Me either. [...] Maybe I can just take your spot.
[don't joke about this you stupid tank]
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[ Two can play that game sort of. ]
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