[she meets his gaze when he turns it to her, expression soft.]
You've got to know I'm going to tell you that it wasn't your fault.
[she says, first.]
And it wouldn't be if it happened here either. It's so fucking far out of our control - gods, right now it's a little hopeless, yeah? It feels a little hopeless, but it isn't. I promise.
This is all last resort shit. It's me telling you that if it comes to that, I don't want you to agonize over it. Because I care about you doing well. In case you haven't noticed.
[ It wasn't, and he knows that. Really, he does. But he can't shake off the why. Why?
Why.
He and Marcoh weren't friends, not yet. Maybe they could've been if they had more than two days. Still doesn't lessen that traumatic impact of watching innocent, well-meaning men turn into monsters. Maybe it's worse the better he gets to know everyone, and waiting so agonisingly long in this place. ]
I know...
And I don't want it to come down to that, is really what it is.
Sitting around with this information feels suffocating...
I don't want to think about you becoming... something. So let's not.
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You've got to know I'm going to tell you that it wasn't your fault.
[she says, first.]
And it wouldn't be if it happened here either. It's so fucking far out of our control - gods, right now it's a little hopeless, yeah? It feels a little hopeless, but it isn't. I promise.
This is all last resort shit. It's me telling you that if it comes to that, I don't want you to agonize over it. Because I care about you doing well. In case you haven't noticed.
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Why.
He and Marcoh weren't friends, not yet. Maybe they could've been if they had more than two days. Still doesn't lessen that traumatic impact of watching innocent, well-meaning men turn into monsters. Maybe it's worse the better he gets to know everyone, and waiting so agonisingly long in this place. ]
I know...
And I don't want it to come down to that, is really what it is.
Sitting around with this information feels suffocating...
I don't want to think about you becoming... something. So let's not.
Alright?
You've still got two grown men to ferry around.
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[she agrees, quietly, and gently she presses her shoulder to his, solid, there.
Think I've got more than two of those. [it's a little bit of a joke.] It'll be alright. I know that sounds like empty words, but I mean it.
Don't lose hope. It's the most important thing any of us have got.
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You don't sound anything like them...
[ He's quiet for the second part. He'd never deny that hope is important, of course. ]
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I'm glad I don't. That's all I want, some days, is for people to know I mean what I say.
You're a pretty soothing presence, you know that? For me, anyway.
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But you're a pretty warm one yourself.
And I don't mean that as a joke.
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Thanks for the clarification. [...] And thanks for the compliment.
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I just need a moment to sit around and just... rest. From all of that.
...
Anything else I can help you with?